12. as absence of RM

I really don't know what happend. After three years of dealing with "Red Monster", howI called it and what means an anxiety disorder, it finnally stopped beating me. It just didn't appear this time. I felt free, I felt confident and I felt lonely in Cracow. But I dealt with everything. I'm totally exhausted of the big, crowded, crazy city. I feel there no sense of being myself. People seems not to have any personality. You can look the most strange in any way, and nobody even want to meet you and know who are you, what's your hobby and what do you think about life. There are so many different people there. But their difference is coming into identity. Cafes, bars, clubs, shops, butiques. You can go everywhere. And that means you have nowhere to go... Everybody says Cracow is a magical city with lots of possibilities, a world of mixed cultures. I saw there no culture. I saw trams, cars, mob and hundreds of people who seemed not to have themselves really.

But thank you Red Monster for not catching me this time. Thank you and goodbye.

And of course... there is no day without tea... "Jagiellońska" Cafe.